Lyrics and Verses...

2010-05-27T23:29:00.001-05:00

Craig and I are on a break.

We are going to talk about what we've thought about since being on a break tomorrow.

I need sleep.

2010-05-02T09:57:00.001-05:00

i am so lonely.......

It is too much to ask for?

2010-03-21T21:14:00.003-05:00

I'm not feeling good (might have brought an unexpected/unwanted souvenir from Peru) and I can't go anywhere and all I want to do is cuddle with my boyfriend.

Apparently his car wants to be on vacation for a little longer because it started smoking while he was driving it. But I guess it's ok enough for him to go to work and make a pit stop at target to get the latest pokémon game. *huge sigh of frustration* I even offered my car but he doesn't want to come and get it. *bigger sigh of frustration*

...I just want to see him.......

Also, I just want to eat solid food.

Almost 2 years

2010-01-14T00:47:00.002-06:00

That's how long we've been dating.

Part of me feels like I don't know him any better. I swear, he tells more to other people than me. And it's not in my head.

We go see a movie. I ask him how it is. He says fine.
We get back to his room. His roomie asks how the movie was. He says it was really imaginative, good acting, interesting, etc.

A friend asks him what his plans are tomorrow so they might be able to meet up for breakfast food. He says he might go shopping to get a zippo lighter and stuff.
I ask him what his plans are tomorrow, he says he doesn't know. He didn't remember I was there with him while he was talking with that friend.

He admits that he answers me like he answers his mother. REALLY reassuring.

UUUUUGHALSKDFIAERFJNL;ANFD;AIHJDO;IFJALJDFS;!!!!!!

*bangs head on nearest hard surface*

2010-01-08T21:58:00.001-06:00

There must be a better way to spend my Friday night....

thanks mom.....

2009-11-17T10:26:00.002-06:00

So I WAS looking forward to opening my degree once it arrived in the mail, but my mom decided that she wanted to so she could frame it and surprise me.

Wrong.

I was really looking forward to it. More than I was when I got my big acceptance package from Bethel. Way more.

I earned that degree, I worked hard, and represents a lot of what I have gone through the last four years.

And now I feel really jipped.

The only thing worse would be having her know I'm pregnant before I even do, and then surprising me. (When/if that day come) (This did happen to a cousin of mine)

Confessions

2009-07-10T02:29:00.002-05:00

I was a cheerleader in high school.

It was not a big thing and not impressive.

The cheerleaders were not the popular girls, like the stereotype goes. We were mostly ignored, especially when I started. The dancers were the popular girls. There were more bleach, bottle blonds, with the fake tans and clownish make-up on the dance team than the cheer team. We only started to become more popular when we had one of the teachers be our coach instead of some person not as closely affiliated to the school.

You know the song, "she is a cheerleader, I'm in the marching band", well, most of the girls on the squad were both, and were fairly proud of it. It was hard for a lot of them to choose between the two.

None of our peers payed any attention to us during the games. The football games were more about socializing than anything, which is weird. Given that context, how is it that the football players who didn't talk to people and socialize were able to be popular and the cheerleaders were not?

But I will admit, it is impressive to say. Craig's friends have mentioned, jokingly, how his first gf was a cheer captain, while he spend most of his HS years playing video games. Little did they know that I spend most of my afternoon on the days I didn't have PSEO practicing my Super Smash Bros moves in the back of my friend's van. Not what many imagine for a cheerleader.

I don't know why I felt like posting this. Maybe it's just the sociologist coming out in me and looking at my own life because it's one thing I can easily observe. *shrug*

Vegas has really screwed up my sleep schedule.

I cannot wait to be home

2009-07-07T02:14:00.002-05:00

So we are on our way back to MN. I am ready to be home. Maybe I can take a vacation from this vacation...

Things I am looking forward to:

I cannot wait to see Craig. This is the longest we've gone without seeing each other, and it's going to be interesting. Part of me thinks it's going to be weird because I'm sure both of us has changed physically (I'm sure Craig has a bigger beard or goatee and I left him fairly clean shaven, and the last time I he saw me, I was a brunette), but at the same time, I know it won't be a big deal, and I'm getting giddy for our reunion.
I'm going to be able to sleep alone, in my own bed, not having to share it with a child or my mother.
I don't have to help take care of 3 boys and can do stuff that I want to do.
Not living out of a suitcase.
Not being crammed in a car, driving for hours on end.
Seeing friends and giving them their souvenirs.
Going to see movies that have come out and I haven't seen yet or will come out and will see within the next couple of weeks.
Having accessible wireless on a daily basis.

Things I'm not looking forward to:

Finding a job. (Even though secretly I want *something* to do, but don't tell anyone)
Having to learn to live my life being a "responsible" adult.
Having to pay for everything myself.
Not being able to splurge on things I don't really need and think it's ok.
The fact that I'm still not on insurance so I can't drive anywhere yet.

My mom's state conference is in Duluth, so Shelly (my cousin) keeps asking if I'm going to that as well or with her to her brother's house in northern MN. I think I might just stay home and work on things that need to get done.

Things I really need to do but probably won't be all that motivated to get done right away until the last minute or my parents have "a talk" with me, whichever comes first:

Find some something where I can volunteer and use my new degree.
Apply to lots of jobs.
Look into more college classes (My dad is way too ambitious for me for my own good).
Find a good church with Craig that we can attend.
Find a Spanish speaking church that I can attend and maybe even volunteer at.

Things I really want to do but probably won't for awhile, if ever:

Go to Craig's cabin.
Visit Sarah.
Plan a trip to South Dakota.

*sigh*
My homecoming can't come soon enough.

Complexities of life

2009-06-20T12:31:00.002-05:00

So three things are standing out to me today concerning life.

1. The death of my 3rd grade teacher, who I was helping in her class not two weeks ago, whose wake is today.

2. A relative's graduation party today.

3. A friend's break-up.

All three are both happy and sad. A full, meaningful life that was cut short. A great accomplishment that leads to uncertainty about success in the future. An important relationship where both had fun times but times that won't return.

Short of actually dying, I have experienced all of them, and it's interesting to be an outside observer and not be directly involved.

It's one of those things that I can't really express in words. But I can definitely feel them and it makes me take a moment and go "huh", sitting there in my mind, looking at those situations and remembering my own.

So... yeah. Mixed emotions.

I kinda wanna slap both my roomies

2009-05-11T20:28:00.003-05:00

They are both being so passive aggressive. At least it would be something else.

For example one roommate posted on facebook:

Friends come and friends go, but a true friend sticks by you like family. Proverbs 18:24 Be not afraid, only believe. Mark 5:36

Fair enough, but still passive aggressive.

The other posted this just minutes ago:

SOMEONE JUST LUV TO GET ON MY SKIN.... I DON'T WANNA LOOSE MY TEMPER ON ANYONE BUT IF MY LAST NERVE IS CROSSED ....................... WELL, JUST HOPE IT IS NOT CROSSED

Now, this is after she wanted the remote from my other roomie, who was already watching TV and wanted to watch the next program that was on. Don't think they'll be friendly after this.

*sigh* Just a week and a half. Can't wait for check out time.... *rolls eyes*

In other, related news:

Some are favorite movies, others are just favorite quotes

2009-04-29T22:53:00.005-05:00

A. Pick 20 of your favorite movies.
B. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
C. Post them here for everyone to guess.
D. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie.
E. NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search or other search functions.

~~1. "We always knew you were a whoopsie."~~ Sarah; Stardust

2. "Men should be explorers, no matter how old they are. I don't know about anybody else, but I'm going. "

3. "Please do not use that word. Were I not entirely aware of my duty to my family and to my country, I would not have come back tonight... or indeed ever again!"

4. "Don't worry, I'm not who I used to be. I've had extensive therapy. I realize I have been using food as a substitute for love and I have the books to prove it: "Breaking the Cycle", "Heal Yourself in 7 Days", "Stop Blaming Yourself, Please", and "Help for the Bedwetting Child", which I picked up by mistake. But I've got them all!"

5. "You're wondering, 'What is a place like me doing in a girl like this?'"
"Yeah, something like that." Nate; The Mummy

~~6. "Besides, after the concert, we were going to shut down your operation anyways. We've found that subliminal messages work much better in movies"~~ Nate; Josie and the Pussycats

~~7. "Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. Happy people just don't shoot their husbands, they just don't"~~ Sarah; Legally Blonde

8. "In the dark I heard your voice, what did you say?"
"I said, 'Hey, you, on the other side - let her go. Because for her I will cross over, and then you'll be sorry!'"

9. "My mother told me to be wary of Fauns"

10. "If his brain's ran down, how can he talk?"
"It happens to people all the time, Jack"

11. "They should name a gender after you. Looking at you doesn't do it, staring is the only way that makes sense. And trying not to blink so you don't miss anything. And all of that and you're you. It's just that you are drop dead crazy gorgeous. So much so, that I'm actually considering looking at you again before we finish up here."

~~12. "Computer, define 'dancing'"~~ Sarah; Wall-E

13. "'Apple?'... 'No, thank you'... 'It's good.'... 'Oh, okay.'
[crunches on the ice and imitates death and then strikes a "tada" pose]
"You feel you'd die without me here."

14. "This is not a democracy, it's a cheerocracy. I'm sorry, but I'm overruling you."
"You are being a cheer-tator Torrence and a pain in my ass!" Nate; Bring It On

15. "If ever I see that Van Dort boy, I'll strangle him with my bare hands!"
"Your hands are too fat, and his neck is too thin. You'll have to use a rope."

16. "It won't affect me, I'm already a woman."

~~17. "Ohhhhh, at least out loud I won't say I'm in love."~~ Sarah; Disney's Hercules

18. "I can't lose you again!... I can't. Not again. I'm not s-strong enough."
"If we work together, you won't have to be."
(from the same movie, but also in lots of others "Wait a second...") Nate; The Incredibles

19. "A few tears, that's all" (book made into a movie)

20. "Better out than in I always say" (Sarah, I don't know if it's in HP&tCoS or not; I quoted it from something else)

Ahhhhh! So weird!!!!

2009-04-15T23:59:00.004-05:00

This is really freaky to me...

This is Karl, Craig's brother:

This is Charlie Cox, the guy who play Tristan:

Please tell me someone else sees the resemblance.

2009-04-07T20:46:00.001-05:00

Things seem to be in perspective, just a little bit more.

More to come later

it's 2:13 in the morning

2009-03-24T02:13:00.002-05:00

i have 13 rough pages written.
i only need about 10 more.
i don't care if half of it is in english
or that i don't have an intro or conclusion.

i'm just going to keep popping in movies
working slowly but steadily

as long as i have all the information that i need
its going to be good enough for me

I just pray to God that everything is going to work out
because it would be...
is...
hell... until I pass this class.

for now i have scottie and selena
and that's helping

You can cut the tension with a knife

2009-03-23T01:10:00.003-05:00

Apparently on Thursday when Ronke got back, she yelled at Alyssa because her stuff was moved from the couch (I had a St. Patty's day party and had lots of people over and needed the couch she uses as her desk) and moved the green couch closer to the Bethel couches. And according to Alyssa, this wasn't her normal yelling, this was a full out attack.

I believe it because Ronke also isn't speaking to me, and she didn't yell at me.

*sigh*
It is annoying having 2 very passive aggressive roommates, and I'm starting to follow suite.

I'm glad I spent the last 3 days at Craig's so I can work on my paper, even if I didn't exactly get all that much done of the actual paper writting.

Stardust makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside....

2009-03-18T22:34:00.002-05:00

"If there's one thing I've learned about all my years watching Earth, is that people aren't what they may seem. There are shop boys, and there are boys who just happen to work in a shop for the time being. And trust me Tristan, you're no shop boy."

I'm stealing this from Sarah

2009-03-16T21:52:00.005-05:00

I could use a hug, a kiss on the forehead and a someone to look me in the eye while saying "You can do this"

And for more sources in Spanish so I can get this goddamn paper done.

I have the worst timing and time management skills in the world.

2009-03-12T00:54:00.001-05:00

*blows raspberries*

Things that annoy me right now

2009-03-10T10:21:00.002-05:00

People who hit or tap on the seat on the opposite side of the booth where I am sitting in market and then feeling it.
My Ibero-american history prof and his lack of attention which results in people having to remind him that we don't have a homework calendar for the next couple of weeks, and him scheduling homework and an exam durring spring break. (I kinda get the vibe that he doesn't want to teach at Bethel anymore)

These thing aren't that big of a deal, just frusturating.

That's what sociology and anthropology is about!

2009-02-19T13:14:00.002-06:00

It is really odd over-hearing someone say they dislike a prof you have grown to admire.

I was riding the shuttle today and I overheard a guy talking about a professor which I very much like. Let's call him Professor Smith. He explained how he took a religion and society kind of class with Smith, and they were talking about protestants. Smith then talked in class about how if he were to ask a classroom full of protestants (or at least I think it was protestants, it could have been evangelicals... they guy had mentioned both) how many of them had physically felt God act in their lives that they would only get 0-1 people say they had, whereas if you asked a roomful of evangelicals the same thing, almost everyone would say they had. This guy didn't like 2 things about things like this and other things he had come across in class and in reading: over generalized and the wrong stats.

Okay, so I'm not sure about stats, they could be made up and invalid, although I highly, highly doubt it. But the overgeneralized... this guy might think they might be overgeneralized, but it could be that they were just generalizations, which is what anthropology and sociology is about. Groups of people are usually described the same way. There will be exceptions within those groups, but exceptions do not make the rule.

I'm finding out more and more that people are following that idea.

"42?!?!"

2009-02-15T21:29:00.003-06:00

I do enjoy The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. Craig and I just finished reading the first book. It's better than the movie.

But the real reason for this post is that my request to have Ibero-American History take place of Contemporary Lit was passed! This means I don't have to spend extra money to take a similar course online or something, and still be able to graduate on time!

All that I have to do now is pass all my classes, and finish my 25 page paper for Spanish Senior Sem....

I really should work on that more....

How about now?

2009-02-03T13:16:00.003-06:00

Still stressed, but happier.

I have such a wonderful boyfriend. This last weekend we celebrated our first anniversary. He wouldn't tell me exactly what we were doing, but it was still fun. He first took me to Hoolihans and we had dinner, without talking about what he had planned after that. Then afterward, when we were in his car, he blindfolded me and drove around for about half an hour. We ended up at the Mall of America, in front of Build-a-Bear. It was a good weekend.

And that's why I'm happy.

I'm stressed because we started school yesterday. I have 4 classes, 2 of which are night classes. I'm just not ready for school to start again.

That 25 page paper that I have to do.... I've only finished half a page.... and it's kinda due next Friday.... this Friday preferably... but I highly doubt that will happen.

I am still short a class in order to graduate. And the thing is, the class I needed is only offered in the fall every other year. It was offered last fall, but my melt-down made me cut some classes from my schedule and the prof for that class said she'd be more than willing to do a course by arrangement with me this spring. So I was planning on that, but then the dean rejected my petition, because it was under a "choose from" category which is ridiculous because pretty much everything under a Spanish major is in a "choose from" option. So now I have to try to petition to have that class waved and take another one in it's place. *sigh*

But even still, it's not too bad.... at least so far. My position might change once I try to work on homework.

So how are you Amanda?

2009-01-05T00:42:00.002-06:00

Do you really wanna know?

I'm stressed!

(please excuse this next post, it's going to be mostly a rant)

My grandpa died day after Christmas. He was my last grandparent.

My sister came up for the funeral, brought her daughter Chyenne. Although she (Chyenne) is adorable, I'm don't know how to handle the news that my sister is going to try to move back up here. It will mean more time with my darling, dear niece, but then I also have to see my sister. I'm not sure if I'll be compleatly thrilled about it, after all, she did run away with a guy, leaving her two sons behind, and us not hearing from her for two years. But hey....

I have to finish a 25 page Spanish Senior Seminar Paper over the next month. Did I mention that it has to be in Spanish, because it does.

I'm going to have to go into the Buisness office tomorrow, because I was charged with for an intrim class, which I am NOT taking.

My roommate texted me earlier saying we need to rearange the room because she can't get internet for her online class. I'm going to suggest that she talk to ITS before we move stuff around.

My boyfriend and I are doing this less/little-physical-contact thing because we have been using more non-verbal than verbal communication, which is kinda a double blade sword because on the one hand we are finding new ways to show eachother that we love one another, but at the same time, his hugs and kisses and cuddles are really relaxing and are just.... wonderful.... and I'm not getting any of them, or at least not until next month (on our aniversary, to be precise).
.... I'm afraid of a bad outcome, and that we'd be "better off as friends".... I don't know how well I could handle that if I didn't feel the same way. I really hope it doesn't turn out that way.

So this increase in stress causers and decrease in destressers will make for an.... interesting next couple of weeks. Some of the stuff I'm just going to have to get through and it will be done in a month or so, others.... it'll take a while to adjust.

Not to mention that I'm currently house sitting for my cousin, and I think that the other person that housesits accidentally left the frezer partially open or something and perhaps the meat and such that is in there dethawed a little because it smells a little like something died in there, or threw up. But that will be solved by Saturday, when she gets back.

Hopefully a happier post will come soon. *crosses fingers*

2008-12-04T20:41:00.004-06:00

Well I was able to finalize my incomplete for Spanish Senior Seminar. I don't have to turn in the paper until the second week of 2nd semester, and then I'll be completely done on the 3 week.

... I'm not sure if I should really be proud of that....

Now, things to do before the semester ends:
-Work more on quantitative project of social connectedness at Bethel
-Work on other project Odubote has assigned for that class
~~-Finish final draft on Durkheim paper~~
~~-Work on theorist matrix~~
-Do take home exam
-Turn in take home exam by next Friday morning
-Prepare powerpoint presentation for quant. project
-Not stress too much

*edit*
I am completely lost when it comes to Odubote's projects. I don't know anymore what is due when. I just hope I can pass the class.

Life's a bitch until you die

2008-12-01T10:13:00.002-06:00

That might just be true...

So I'm definitely ready to be done with school. Being in it for 4 years gets to be old, and at the worst time in a person's academic career. I think just about anyone in my situation could agree with that.

I'm taking an incomplete for my Spanish Senior Seminar class, and I'm still trying to be ok with it.

And I still don't know what I want to do after all of this.

Looking into massage therapy, and it looks interesting. (Now only if I can get over the idea of massaging overweight, hairy, old men, I should do fine. (In a weird way, I am, at least of right now))

*sigh*

2008-11-23T16:17:00.001-06:00

I feel so much better.

Now, I just can't wait until tomorrow.

ppppplllllbbbbbb

2008-11-21T14:04:00.003-06:00

It's a complex thing, getting picture messages from the boyfriend while he's in Disney World on a family trip.

Almost more of a cruel and unusual punishment than a nice I-miss-you/wish-you-were-here.

I don't think he realizes what he's doing by sending me those pics.

Not meant for facebook

2008-11-20T17:13:00.002-06:00

Amanda:
is over drafting like crazy, and now owes over $200 to her bank.
is not looking forward to this Saturday when she has to confront both the bank and her father.
is missing her boyfriend.
is jealous because he is in Disney World.
is going to have to take an incomplete in her senior sem class.
has no motivation to do homework.
has no motivation to do anything.
doesn't want to watch tv anymore, but doesn't know of anything better to do.
is going to get over this and find something to do tonight that is fun.

Wow...

2008-11-05T10:41:00.001-06:00

When I hear this lady speak, I just think "Kim Jong Il"

2008-09-16T15:13:00.001-05:00

I hate PMS.

And Sheryl Crow lied.

2008-08-15T21:22:00.002-05:00

"Why? Why did you look....?"
"I'm an emotional cutter."

I've learned.... a little more about my feelings, and understand and accept them a little more.
I'm happy with where I'm going.

Random:
*while watching a Target ad of new roomies dancing while rearageing their room*
"So, did you and your roomates do that when you first moved in?"
*we both laugh*

2008-07-24T11:16:00.003-05:00

.... or *anything* for that matter....

and I don't look at it as a joke.
and neither should the person who sent in that secret.

PostSecret:

2008-05-04T20:32:00.001-05:00

Him and me.

Non-posted facebook statuses

2008-04-17T01:32:00.002-05:00

Amanda:
is facing the past.
has it all out in the open.
is anxious.
prays things will turn out well.
wants to cuddle.
should pray more.
is on an emotional roller coaster and doesn't want to take you along, but if you want to come, be my guest, but be warned.
is still dealing.
wants the fairy tale ending and hopes this road leads to happily ever after.
will work on it with you.

....meh... why the hell not...

2008-04-06T15:35:00.002-05:00

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Commemoration of Amy Carmichael, Founder of the Dohnavour Fellowship, 1951

2008-03-16T10:23:00.000-05:00

To the dim and bewildered vision of humanity, God's care is more evident in some instances than in others; and upon such instances men seize, and call them providences. It is well that they can; but it would be gloriously better if they could believe that the whole matter is one grand providence.
~George Macdonald~

From Roosterteeth.com

2008-03-04T13:00:00.002-06:00

*sigh*

2008-02-27T12:57:00.003-06:00

This relates really well to a simulation we had in my Theology of Poverty class.
I find the timing quite ironic.

2008-02-05T19:33:00.001-06:00

...here goes nothing...

Why boys are stupid

2008-01-10T16:30:00.001-06:00

2008-01-08T22:06:00.000-06:00

I'm kind of jealous of the life I'm supposedly leading.
- Zach Braff

2008-01-06T15:55:00.000-06:00

Of all forms of caution, caution in love is the most fatal.
~Anonymous~

2008-01-03T18:30:00.000-06:00

The secret of being a bore is to tell everything.
-Voltaire

2007-12-27T18:42:00.000-06:00

It's amazing how much you miss someone when you realize that they are gone forever.

Happy Christmas!

2007-12-24T15:06:00.001-06:00

And finals are over with!

2007-12-22T12:53:00.000-06:00

FREEEEEEEEDOOOOOOM!

In other news, I think I'm growing up just a little bit.
It's nice.

verbal vomit, yet another form of procrastination

2007-12-20T15:53:00.000-06:00

and even when you think of the good and you start thinking about how you loved him and sacrificed so much you need to take him out of the picture. the best way to do that, i think, is by reassuring yourself that you are a great person that knows how to really care for someone. when you love, you LOVE. and that means whoever really falls in love with you is the luckiest person alive, and on the flipside, you are the luckiest person alive to be able to provide that

i think i deserve an apology.

Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy.
~Cynthia Nelms~

i'm trying cynthia

Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off the goal.
~Henry Ford~

yeah, yeah, yeah. i'll get back to homework eventually....

God will supply all your real needs.
~Unknown~

*sigh*

2007-12-16T17:48:00.003-06:00

It's amazing how much stuff you can get out of old posts, and to see how much you have been through and changed.

I think the universe is trying to tell me something......

2007-12-15T13:25:00.000-06:00

The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather a lack of will.
~Jason Kidd, upon his drafting to the Dallas Mavericks pro basketball team~

2007-12-14T08:22:00.001-06:00

minus the beard.

2007-12-11T16:15:00.001-06:00

From xkcd:

2007-12-03T16:44:00.001-06:00

2007-11-27T12:25:00.000-06:00

To dream the impossible dream,
To fight the unbeatable foe,
To bear with unbearable sorrow
To run where the brave dare not go;
To right the unrightable wrong.
To love, pure and chaste, from afar,
To try, when your arms are too weary,
To reach the unreachable star!

gotta keep trudging on...

late night convos

2007-11-04T01:32:00.000-05:00

the good is in you. wow that sounds cheesy. but like everything about how you said you changed, and the important things you learned to better yourself and your relationships in the future
....
and even when you think of the good and you start thinking about how you loved him and sacrificed so much you need to take him out of the picture. the best way to do that, i think, is by reassuring yourself that you are a great person that knows how to really care for someone. when you love, you LOVE. and that means whoever really falls in love with you is the luckiest person alive, and on the flipside, you are the luckiest person alive to be able to provide that

thanks.
i'll keep it in mind.

2007-10-31T14:40:00.001-05:00

Oh Megatokyo, how I love thee! ^_^

2007-10-30T12:26:00.000-05:00

You are a douche
for making me feel
I wasn't worth it.

I AM

2007-10-23T01:24:00.001-05:00

....I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity....

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do....

*mental note: you need to figure stuff out.*

2007-10-20T05:18:00.000-05:00

"Just breathe....."

So this movie is basically amazing if it wasn't for Drew Barrymore. Any other actress in the lead role would be better.

And my views on that post haven't changed.

2007-10-19T14:37:00.000-05:00

.... you just keep on trying till you run out of cake....

2007-10-10T09:32:00.000-05:00

It's surprising how many persons go through life without ever recognizing that their feelings toward other people are largely determined by their feelings toward themselves, and if you're not comfortable within yourself, you can't be comfortable with others. - Sidney J. Harris

Good quotes from Disney Movie Marathon yesterday

2007-10-07T13:30:00.000-05:00

"Faint hearts never won fair lady."
~Robin Hood

The Emperor of China: The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all.
Shang: Sir?
The Emperor of China: You don't meet a girl like that every dynasty.

Aladdin: Princess Jasmine, you're very...
Genie: Wonderful! Magnificent! Glorious!... Punctual!
Aladdin: Punctual!
Jasmine: Punctual?
Genie: Sorry.
Aladdin: Uh... uh... beautiful!
Aladdin: Nice recovery.

Meg: [singing] Ohhhhh, at least out loud I won't say I'm in love.

Widdow Tweed: We met it seems, such a short time ago. You looked at me, needing me so. Yet from your sadness, our happiness grew. Then I found out, I needed you, too. I remember how we used to play. I recall those rainy days, the fires glowed, that kept us warm. And now I find, we're both alone. Goodbye may seem forever, farewell is like the end. But in my heart's a memory, and there you'll always be.

Goofy: You're my son, Max. No matter how big you get, you'll always be my son.

Bagheera:You wouldn't marry a panther, would you?
Baloo: I don't know. Come to think of it, no panther ever asked me.

Bob: [shouts] I can't lose you again!
[calms down]
Bob: I can't. Not again. I'm not s-strong enough.
Helen: [kisses him] If we work together, you won't have to be.

2007-10-01T22:03:00.000-05:00

*taps microphone*

Attention, attention please.
I have a special announcement:

*blows raspberry*

That is all.

2007-09-28T01:16:00.001-05:00

John 17:20-26

2007-09-08T15:09:00.000-05:00

...Sleep hath its own world,
And a wide realm of wild reality,
And dreams in their development have breath,
And tears, and tortures, and the touch of joy;
They leave a weight upon our waking thoughts,
They take a weight from off waking toils,
They do divide our being; they become
A portion of ourselves as of our time,
And look like heralds of eternity;
They pass like spirits of the past -they speak
Like sibyls of the future; they have power -
The tyranny of pleasure and of pain;...

2007-08-25T12:50:00.000-05:00

*update*

Michael Hosea (redeeming love)
Sayoran (tsubasa chronicles)
Ed Bloom (big fish)
Wolf (10th kingdom)
Gilbert Blithe (anne of green gables)
Prince Philip (sleeping beauty)
Westley (princess bride)
Jacob (gen. 29:20)
Will (his dark materials trilogy)
Chandler Bing (friends)
Ashitaka (princess mononoke)
V (v for vendetta)

2007-08-21T20:06:00.000-05:00

I wish people who have trouble communicating would just shut up.
~Tom Lehrer

2007-08-20T23:20:00.001-05:00

2007-08-17T20:35:00.000-05:00

this is cute,
and speaks to the hopeless romantic in me.

2007-08-15T20:13:00.000-05:00

"You're killing me Smalls!"

2007-08-15T00:29:00.000-05:00

“If we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord.”
Roman 14:8

2007-08-14T23:45:00.000-05:00

The path that I'm walking, I must go alone
I must take the baby steps till I'm full grown,
full grown.
Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending do they
And I for see the dark ahead if I stay

2007-08-11T16:10:00.000-05:00

ummm....

will you please just fall off the face of the earth and out of my memory?

k thanks.

2007-08-09T10:19:00.001-05:00

2007-08-08T22:36:00.001-05:00

i'm going to erase most of the quotes from facebook, but don't want to loose them, so i'm going to put them here:

Jerimiah 29:11

It is better to keep your mouth closed and let people think you are a fool than to open it and remove all doubt.
~Mark Twain

I reject your reality and substitute my own. ~Adam Savage

"A few tears, and that's all" ~Morrie Schwartz

Pastor: We're like the holy trinity; I'm the father, Paige is like the holy spirit and Shawn...
Shawn: Oh great, your going to sacrifice me, aren't you?

Amy: I don't even know what an RPG is.
Jen: Wait, I know, it means Role Playing Game, right? So, like Dungeons and Dragons?
Hope: Dungeons and Dragons is not an RPG
Jen: Yes it is!
Hope: No it isn't! ...Is it?
Me: *banging my head on the table in front of me* Yes, it is an RPG.

Oh my gosh!!!! I just read this tea-bag and thought it said: 'Orgasmic Bigot'! ~Sarah

I heard on the radio people talking about how great the title "Snakes on a plane" is. I thought about calling in and saying "No it's not!" I mean, that's like calling [V for Vendetta] "Guy who wears a mask because he was horribly burnt"! ~Anna's sister

Everyone loves naked Indians ~Nate

Me: (talking about Rocky Balboa) It was a good ending to a great legacy.
Alyssa: That means he dies.
Jen: Or gets a disease
Katie: Or has a baby.

Me: Guys, I don't know what to do about my classes.
Luke: Punch the professor in the face.
Me: No, I can't do that, she's pregnant.
Luke: Oh, you're right. You have to punch her in the stomach.

Blood on the doily, blood on the door! Blood in the kitchen and blood on the floor! ~Nate

And I would be looking at him and just be thinking "I love you" but then tell him "Let's go eat some raisin bran" ~Anna

.:Guatemala Quotes:.

Tessie: Wait, do you need wireless to write your paper?
Me:.... no, but I want it.
Tessie: Well, I want the crepe-boy...

Tessie: The crepe boy is so beautiful!
Me: But he´s French.
Tessie: I´m a liberal pacifist, I can handle a French man.

Me: Yeah, I think the crepe-boy looks french.
Tessie: Really, I always thought of french men having bad teeth and big noses. I think a better definition for him would be "the definition of male beauty".

I'm not lusting, I'm just admiring God's beautiful creation of mankind. ~Tessie

I hate your tounge ~ Marissa talking to Drew

I´m toilet paper?! ~Tessie

Me: Entertainment, that´s all I´m good for.
Tessie: And reproducing!

It's so hard to live in Guatemala when you mildly fall in love with every brown eyed man... and some women! ~Tessie

There is only one reason a person gets excited about triple minutes, and it's not to call family. ~Daysung

I think that size really matters ~Tessie

You only like me for my pool ~ Bethany

Jesus was the best prankster ever. I mean, look at the resurrection: "Hey guy's, I'm dead. Wait, just kidding, I'm not!" ~Seth

*sings* I got you babe... 'cuz there ain't no mountain hight enough. ~Drew

Becky: Mas frijoles.
Me: For what?
Becky: For life

2007-07-24T23:20:00.000-05:00

sakura and syaoran!!!!!

and the song isn't that bad.

that's what happenes when you randomly search "don't want to be your friend lyrics" on google because you weren't sure how to express yourself,
and thought that you're sure there's some song out there that has the words you lack...
*is that pathetic at all?*

2007-07-23T00:50:00.000-05:00

Dream
When you're feeling blue
Dream
That's the thing to do
Just watch the smoke rings rise in the air
You'll find your share of memories there

So, dream when the day is through
Dream and they might come true
Things never are as bad as they seem
So dream, dream, dream

Dream
Just watch the smoke rings rise in the air
You'll find your share of memories there

So, dream
Things never are as bad as they seem
So dream, dream, dream

~Dream
Michael Buble

... and it helps...
.... just a little bit....

2007-07-16T15:52:00.000-05:00

girls... this is for you

and i know one guy who should read this

2007-07-16T14:24:00.000-05:00

All you need is love. But a little chocolate now and then doesn't hurt.
~Charles M. Schulz

and sometimes chocolate is better.

2007-07-10T11:51:00.000-05:00

i want good dreams again.

not these ones that have false hopes
or reminds me of things that i can't have
or situations that won't happen
or that just get me upset.

i'd like to wake up
and not having a sick feeling in my stomach.

*sigh*
maybe that's too much to ask for.

2007-07-08T12:59:00.000-05:00

Relationships don't work the way they do on television and in the movies: Will they, won't they, and then they finally do and they're happy forever -- gimme a break.

Nine out of ten of them end because they weren't right for each other to begin with, and half the ones that get married get divorced, anyway. And I'm telling you right now, through all this stuff, I have not become a cynic, I haven't.

Yes, I do happen to believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate-covered candies and, you know, in some cultures, a chicken. You can call me a sucker, I don't care, 'cause I do...believe in it.

Bottom line...is the couples that are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but, the big difference is, they don't let it take 'em down.

~Dr. Cox, Scrubs

2007-07-07T12:26:00.000-05:00

Character is the sum and total of a person's choices.
~P. B. Fitzwater~

2007-07-05T23:31:00.000-05:00

i am going to sing this to my child when i have one:

For once in my life
I have someone who needs me
Someone I've needed so long
For once unafraid
I can go where life leads me
And somehow I know I'll be strong
For once I can touch
What my heart used to dream of
Long before I knew
Someone warm like you
Could make my dream come true
For once in my life
I won't let sorrow hurt me
Not like it's hurt me before
For once I've got someone
I know won't desert me
I'm not alone anymore
For once I can say
This is mine, you can't take it
As long as I've got love
I know I can make it
For once in my life
I've got someone who needs me

"For Once In My Life"
originally by Ron Miller
(i heard it from Michael Buble
who is pretty much amazing)

2007-06-29T14:06:00.000-05:00

you think you're fine.
you think you're over it.
then....

*WHAM*

...nope.
and it sucks.

2007-06-25T12:44:00.000-05:00

some days i feel like just giving up...
but then i force the sentence
"everything is going to be ok."
even if i don't believe it.

2007-06-23T16:18:00.000-05:00

If it were not for hopes, the heart would break.
He who has health has hope; and he who has hope has everything.
~Thomas Fuller~

2007-06-22T19:13:00.000-05:00

i was watching crimson tide and felt like crying

not because of it's story....

but because of mine.

*sigh* the music is amazing...
but...
*sigh*

2007-06-21T20:41:00.001-05:00

I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions.
~Augusten Burroughs

....too bad the road to hell is paved with good intentions....

2007-06-21T20:30:00.000-05:00

i feel like i've had a little bit of an enlightenment....

i need to figure everything out for myself,
not go on what i learn from other people
or what other people find interesting,
but to find my own interesting things.

it's deeper than that, but i don't know how to put it in words.
i'll blame my headache.

2007-06-17T20:21:00.000-05:00

To be matter of fact about the world is to blunder into fantasy -- and dull fantasy at that, as the real world is strange and wonderful.
~Robert Heinlein~

2007-06-17T00:17:00.000-05:00

"...i would never wish bad things, but i don't wish you well...."

*sigh*
slowly, slowly, very slowly....

2007-06-15T20:05:00.000-05:00

little by little...

2007-06-08T15:21:00.000-05:00

i hate money
and i feel stupid

2007-06-06T16:26:00.000-05:00

...I'm in no rush
Maybe I've learned
Playing with matches
A girl can get burned...

3rd degree i'd say...

2007-06-04T10:40:00.000-05:00

i haven't changed much since being a child.

my mom told me that as i child,
i liked to just sit back and observe.

and i still do.
and i don't know if that will ever change.

and that is not necessarily a bad thing.

2007-06-03T18:03:00.000-05:00

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.
~Pablo Neruda

the whole poem here

if i could....
i would scream this to you.
but i don't think that i could...
and i highly doubt that i even could...
no matter how much i would want to.

2007-06-03T12:15:00.000-05:00

....ultimate paradox...

i hate.....
but i love....
and at both extremes....

i definitely don't love this paradox....

2007-06-01T11:21:00.000-05:00

...sometimes, i feel like i was nothing....
and it makes me wonder....
will i ever be something?

i know i will....
but it's hard to feel like it....

"I've been so afraid of the bad things that I missed out on the good."
~Samantha, Now and Then

I don't want that to happen to me. *thoughtful sigh*

~me, sept 16, 2006

i need to remember that....

2007-05-31T13:58:00.000-05:00

how much should we change for love?

good article

2007-05-31T01:29:00.000-05:00

i need to start posting stuff when i'm actually awake and have valid things to write.

2007-05-30T11:59:00.000-05:00

...i feel for ping...

but i don't quite feel fake