Thursday, March 02, 2006

I feel like punching someone/something

How do some people say they believe one thing, sign a statement saying they believe this thing and saying on the statement that they won't do said thing, and then GO AND DO SAID THING!?!?!? And in the place where the statement is holded very VERY strongly?!?! And with other people's stuff and think that nothing is wrong with it?!?!?!

I am trying really hard not to freak out or let out this secret (which I might have already failed at, Cullen don't repeat a word!!!!!). I am literaly shaking because of this information!! I feel like this is the only way of getting it out of my system without someone losing their head.

God please calm me down!!!!

I can't wait to go work out!

Sorry / Faith / Dad

Ok, I knew this would happen. I would start a blog and then never really keep up with it. That's why I don't own a diary. Whatever.

So I asked my dad today about his beliefs and stuff. Here is pretty much the converstation:

Me: Dad, do you believe in God?
Dad: Yeah, sure.
Me: Then why don't you go to church?
Dad: I think church is all about politics.
Me: (something along the lines of) So how do you worship God/ why don't you read the bible?
Dad: (something along the lines of) Well I believe there are other ways of worshiping God. Growing up catholic never taught me to read the bible as a way to get to know God, that's more of a prodestant thing. Are you afraid of me dying?
Me: No, I'm just afraid for your soul.
Dad: Well, I think my soul will be ok.

And that was the just of the conversation. I've been wanting to ask him more stuff over the years and I finally got around to it today. Ok, so here is some backround info on my dad: He was just diagnosed with lymphoma and is going through chemo therapy, the first session was on the 24th. I think that why he thinks that church is all about politics is because when his uncle was dying, he was asked to go to the church to get a priest to recite the last rites (I think, i'm not sure tho) and to give communion to his uncle. The church responded by saying "he doesn't have time for us, we don't have time for him" and that set a huge example for him.

I don't know what to do now. I'll just keep praying about it.

A WHOLE YEAR!!!

Wow. I totaly forgot about this blog. The only reason I remebered it was because of my friend's blog. I usually use xanga, but I might just copy my blog entries and then copy them to here. Sounds like a plan to me!!