why?

I know you probably won't read this, but I'll write it anyways.

Embrace God.
Plunge into the comfort that is knowing He is in control of your life.
Why be terrified?
It is such a huge relief!
Cling to him.

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

He is your hope,
He is your future,
embrace Him,
for only good will come from Him.

You don't really know me, but I'm praying for you.

But what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that, even though I do not know you, and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you, I love you. With all my heart, I love you.

Most of all beloved, so does God.

A Ph33rbot Christmas

Heh... I'm a megatokyo nerd....

One more song for the floaty playlist

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth

And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive, and not dead

And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I`ll be love's suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

And I dropped out, I burned up, I fought my way back from the dead,
I tuned in, turned on, remembered the thing that you said.

And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

The greatest fan of your life.

~"I'll Be"
Edwin McCain

*sigh* sometimes i don't like being a hopeless romantic...

2 Timothy 4:3-4

For the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine.
Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear.
They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths.

God, help me keep my ears open to your word,
even if i don't want to hear it.

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

i am not in a good place

everyone else is excited to go home
i'm not

why does it seem like everyone has a best friend but me?
when will i have the kind of friend that will just listen to me?
that will tell me to come over even though it's the middle of the night?
that will know me inside and out?
that i can talk to freely?
who i can cry to freely?

i want to give up
i don't think anyone knows
i don't think anyone knows how bad it is

...if i didn't think suicide was such a big sin, i would be dead by now...

oh god, i need you...
take control...
take this cup away from me...
your ears are not deaf to my silent screams...
remind me of that...
hold me...
comfort me...
make me beautiful...
i love you lord...

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*i need to remember i'm a magical girl*

-lord, it seems like you answer prayers quickly...
thank you...
remind me...
don't let me forget...
i love you...

MT

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*I have to remember I'm a magical girl.*

Funny quote

Just a funny quote, nothing more, nothing less

I told my psychiatrist that everyone hates me. He said I was being ridiculous- everyone hasn't met me yet.

~Rodney Dangerfield

Megatokyo II

why i like disney movies

there is the princess
her life is fine
then tragedy strikes
she has to get through it alone
she has to find a way out alone
it's hard
almost unbearable
just worry and despair
she meets her prince charming
he helps her
he rescues her
he marries her
he takes her away
no more tragedy
no more being alone


...where is my prince...?

Megatokyo