Confessions

I was a cheerleader in high school.

It was not a big thing and not impressive.

The cheerleaders were not the popular girls, like the stereotype goes. We were mostly ignored, especially when I started. The dancers were the popular girls. There were more bleach, bottle blonds, with the fake tans and clownish make-up on the dance team than the cheer team. We only started to become more popular when we had one of the teachers be our coach instead of some person not as closely affiliated to the school.

You know the song, "she is a cheerleader, I'm in the marching band", well, most of the girls on the squad were both, and were fairly proud of it. It was hard for a lot of them to choose between the two.

None of our peers payed any attention to us during the games. The football games were more about socializing than anything, which is weird. Given that context, how is it that the football players who didn't talk to people and socialize were able to be popular and the cheerleaders were not?

But I will admit, it is impressive to say. Craig's friends have mentioned, jokingly, how his first gf was a cheer captain, while he spend most of his HS years playing video games. Little did they know that I spend most of my afternoon on the days I didn't have PSEO practicing my Super Smash Bros moves in the back of my friend's van. Not what many imagine for a cheerleader.


I don't know why I felt like posting this. Maybe it's just the sociologist coming out in me and looking at my own life because it's one thing I can easily observe. *shrug*


Vegas has really screwed up my sleep schedule.

I cannot wait to be home

So we are on our way back to MN. I am ready to be home. Maybe I can take a vacation from this vacation...

Things I am looking forward to:

• I cannot wait to see Craig. This is the longest we've gone without seeing each other, and it's going to be interesting. Part of me thinks it's going to be weird because I'm sure both of us has changed physically (I'm sure Craig has a bigger beard or goatee and I left him fairly clean shaven, and the last time I he saw me, I was a brunette), but at the same time, I know it won't be a big deal, and I'm getting giddy for our reunion.
• I'm going to be able to sleep alone, in my own bed, not having to share it with a child or my mother.
  
• I don't have to help take care of 3 boys and can do stuff that I want to do.
• Not living out of a suitcase.
• Not being crammed in a car, driving for hours on end.
  
• Seeing friends and giving them their souvenirs.
• Going to see movies that have come out and I haven't seen yet or will come out and will see within the next couple of weeks.
• Having accessible wireless on a daily basis.
  

Things I'm not looking forward to:

• Finding a job. (Even though secretly I want *something* to do, but don't tell anyone)
  
• Having to learn to live my life being a "responsible" adult.
• Having to pay for everything myself.
• Not being able to splurge on things I don't really need and think it's ok.
• The fact that I'm still not on insurance so I can't drive anywhere yet.
  

My mom's state conference is in Duluth, so Shelly (my cousin) keeps asking if I'm going to that as well or with her to her brother's house in northern MN. I think I might just stay home and work on things that need to get done.

Things I really need to do but probably won't be all that motivated to get done right away until the last minute or my parents have "a talk" with me, whichever comes first:

• Find some something where I can volunteer and use my new degree.
• Apply to lots of jobs.
• Look into more college classes (My dad is way too ambitious for me for my own good).
• Find a good church with Craig that we can attend.
• Find a Spanish speaking church that I can attend and maybe even volunteer at.
  

Things I really want to do but probably won't for awhile, if ever:

• Go to Craig's cabin.
• Visit Sarah.
• Plan a trip to South Dakota.

*sigh*
My homecoming can't come soon enough.