why?

I know you probably won't read this, but I'll write it anyways.

Embrace God.
Plunge into the comfort that is knowing He is in control of your life.
Why be terrified?
It is such a huge relief!
Cling to him.

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

He is your hope,
He is your future,
embrace Him,
for only good will come from Him.

You don't really know me, but I'm praying for you.

But what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that, even though I do not know you, and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you, I love you. With all my heart, I love you.

Most of all beloved, so does God.

A Ph33rbot Christmas

Heh... I'm a megatokyo nerd....

One more song for the floaty playlist

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth

And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive, and not dead

And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I`ll be love's suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

And I dropped out, I burned up, I fought my way back from the dead,
I tuned in, turned on, remembered the thing that you said.

And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

The greatest fan of your life.

~"I'll Be"
Edwin McCain

*sigh* sometimes i don't like being a hopeless romantic...

2 Timothy 4:3-4

For the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine.
Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear.
They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths.

God, help me keep my ears open to your word,
even if i don't want to hear it.

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

i am not in a good place

everyone else is excited to go home
i'm not

why does it seem like everyone has a best friend but me?
when will i have the kind of friend that will just listen to me?
that will tell me to come over even though it's the middle of the night?
that will know me inside and out?
that i can talk to freely?
who i can cry to freely?

i want to give up
i don't think anyone knows
i don't think anyone knows how bad it is

...if i didn't think suicide was such a big sin, i would be dead by now...

oh god, i need you...
take control...
take this cup away from me...
your ears are not deaf to my silent screams...
remind me of that...
hold me...
comfort me...
make me beautiful...
i love you lord...

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*i need to remember i'm a magical girl*

-lord, it seems like you answer prayers quickly...
thank you...
remind me...
don't let me forget...
i love you...

MT

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*I have to remember I'm a magical girl.*

Funny quote

Just a funny quote, nothing more, nothing less

I told my psychiatrist that everyone hates me. He said I was being ridiculous- everyone hasn't met me yet.

~Rodney Dangerfield

Megatokyo II

why i like disney movies

there is the princess
her life is fine
then tragedy strikes
she has to get through it alone
she has to find a way out alone
it's hard
almost unbearable
just worry and despair
she meets her prince charming
he helps her
he rescues her
he marries her
he takes her away
no more tragedy
no more being alone


...where is my prince...?

Megatokyo

Don't be discouraged by a failure. It can be a positive experience. Failure is, in a sense, the highway to success, inasmuch as every discovery of what is false leads us to seek earnestly after what is true, and every fresh experience points out some form of error which we shall afterwards carefully avoid.

~John Keats

...ok...

"Just breathe..."

I just love this scene...

This scene is from "Ever After: A Cinderella Story"

The prince sees his love across a crowded room
He rushes past all the other people to her
He can't believe that she is actually there
He sees only her
To him, she is the only one who matters in the room.


Who wouldn't want a prince like that?

In the part of this universe that we know there is great injustice, and often the good suffer, and often the wicked prosper, and one hardly knows which of those is the more annoying.
- Bertrand Russell

Baby It's Cold outside...

I really can't stay
Baby it's cold outside
I've got to go away
Baby it's cold outside
This evening has been
Been hoping that you'd drop in
So very nice
I'll hold your hands, they're just like ice
My mother will start to worry
Beautiful, what's your hurry
My father will be pacing the floor
Listen to the fireplace roar
So really I'd better scurry
Beautiful, please don't hurry
well Maybe just a half a drink more
Put some music on while I pour

The neighbors might think
Baby, it's bad out there
Say, what's in this drink
No cabs to be had out there
I wish I knew how
Your eyes are like starlight now
To break this spell
I'll take your hat, your hair looks swell
I ought to say no, no, no, sir
Mind if I move a little closer
At least I'm gonna say that I tried
What's the sense in hurting my pride
I really can't stay
Baby don't hold out
Ahh, but it's cold outside

C'mon baby

I simply must go
Baby, it's cold outside
The answer is no
Ooh baby, it's cold outside
This welcome has been
I'm lucky that you dropped in
So nice and warm
Look out the window at that storm
My sister will be suspicious
Man, your lips look so delicious
My brother will be there at the door
Waves upon a tropical shore
My maiden aunt's mind is vicious
Gosh your lips look delicious
Well maybe just a half a drink more
Never such a blizzard before

I've got to go home
Oh, baby, you'll freeze out there
Say, lend me your coat
It's up to your knees out there
You've really been grand
Your eyes are like starlight now
But don't you see
How can you do this thing to me
There's bound to be talk tomorrow
Making my life long sorrow
At least there will be plenty implied
If you caught pneumonia and died
I really can't stay
Get over that old out
Ahh, but it's cold outside

Basically...

If I could grant
You one wish
I'd wish you could see the way you kiss
Ooh, I love watching you
Baby
When you're driving me crazy

Ooh, I love the way you
Love the way you love me
There's nowhere else I'd rather be
Ooh, to feel the way I feel with your arms around me
I only wish that you could see the way you love me
The way you love

It’s not right
It’s not fair
What you're missing over there
Someday I'll find a way to show you
Just how lucky I am to know you

Ooh, I love the way you
Love the way you love me
There's nowhere else I'd rather be
Ooh, to feel the way I feel with your arms around me
I only wish that you could see the way you love me
The way you love me

You're the million reasons why
There's love reflecting in my eyes

Ooh, I love the way you
Love the way you love me
There's nowhere else I'd rather be
Ooh, to feel the way I feel with your arms around me
I only wish that you could see the way you love me
The way you love me
The way you love me

Ooh, the way you love me
The way you love me

~The Way You Love Me
Faith Hill

Yep, basically...

Yeah...

But you will live Eponine, dear God above
If I could heal your wounds... with words of love.

i really should keep this in mind...

i want chocolate and a punching bag...

sleep, sleep is what i need.... but i just can't seem to get to sleep.

Yay V!

Remember remember the fifth of November
Gunpowder, treason and plot.
I see no reason why gunpowder treason
Should ever be forgot...

V for Vendetta is such an awesome movie. *swoon* V...

Hmmm... a short history of the nursery rhyme.
And wikipedia on the day.

Apparently the tradition began in 1606, so that would make this the what, quadcentenial of the holiday? Is that even a word?

I've been around D&D too much

Rogues are preferable to imbeciles because they sometimes take a rest.
- Alexandre Dumas

Yeah... automatically thought of my friend Chris who plays a rogue in a campaign he is in with all my other friends.

Good habits, which bring our lower passions and appetites under automatic control, leave our natures free to explore the larger experiences of life.

~Ralph W. Sockman

I need better habbits...

a poem.

Silent Screams
And they crawl through my mind
and they burrow and they speak softly
with those evil words,
poisoning me with my own blood,
I can't tell them,
those evil words are spinning and spinning
and I can't remember where I come from,
but I remember where I've been,
no regrets,
but drowning inside
and waiting for another day to let the screaming end.
Take me to the platform
and let me dance
and let the wind blow through me
and let the tears dry on my skin.
let them dissolve into joy.
and I dance
through the dirt while I talk to strangers,
but I'm their strangers,
strange girl with panic in her eyes
and a swing in her step about to
fall, to fall with no one there to catch
and I try and tell them but
those evil words come and convince me yet again,
so I cry and I fight them, those demons
living in my homes, houses,
for there's no hearts there,
those demons living in my houses that
laugh at this girls pain,
they think that they know fighting is what I live for,
this warrior.
and that my joy is in their tears, their pain, this bitch.
And I scream
but no sound comes and I cry
but they do not see the little poison
diamond streams,
I'm locked alone,
mute and dry and then the blood comes
and they listen,
then the screams go running down my arms
and they can hear,
I smash the insanity crawling in my mind.
I let the screams run
and run and run until
they've told all this soul
needs to say.
Shane

I got it here

*sigh* ok, that's out.

Welcome to my emotional garbage can.

"Better out than in I always say"
~Shrek

Laziness

Laziness is nothing more than the habit of resting before you get tired.
- Jules Renard

I seem to be resting a lot lately

The best way to cheer yourself is to try to cheer someone else up.

~Mark Twain

sweet nothings...

Do not forsake me O my darlin'....

Hopeless romantic post

That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time.

~Drew Barrymore in
Never Been Kissed

heh... yeah.... *smile*

Yes. Nearly everybody gets twitterpated in the springtime. For example: You're walking along, minding your own business. You're looking neither to the left, nor to the right, when all of a sudden you run smack into a pretty face. Woo-woo! You begin to get weak in the knees. Your head's in a whirl. And then you feel light as a feather, and before you know it, you're walking on air. And then you know what? You're knocked for a loop, and you completely lose your head!

~Bambi

**that means they are in heat**

Amazing the things you get from watching movies that you watched as a kid when you watch them when you are older.

A prayer

Father in Heaven! When the thought of thee wakes in our hearts let it not awaken like a frightened bird that flies about in dismay, but like a child waking from its sleep with a heavenly smile.

~Soren Kierkegaard

Don't know who this person is exactly, but they seem to have some good thoughts

An oldie but a goodie

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

~The Road Not Taken
by Robert Frost

What a kiss means...

*Kiss on the stomach-----"lets do it"
*Kiss on the Forehead ----"i hope we're together forever"
*Kiss on the Ear ---"I'm horny"
*Kiss on the Cheek ---"We're friends"
*Kiss on the Hand ---"I adore you"
*Kiss on the Neck ---"we belong together"
*Kiss on the Shoulder ---"I want you"
*Kiss on the Lips ---"I love you" OR "I want you"

What the gesture means...
*Holding Hands ---"we definitely love each other"
*Slap on the Butt ---"That's mine"
*Holding on tight ---"i don't want to let go"
*Looking into each other's Eyes ---"i just plain love you"
*Playing with Hair ---"Tell me you love me"
*Arms around the Waist ---"I love you too much to let go"
*Laughing while Kissing ---"I am completely Comfortable with you"


-I'd agree

So true...

If people never did silly things, nothing intelligent would ever get done.
~Ludwig Wittgenstein

Random Movie Quote

Linus Larabee: After all, this is the 20th century, Father.
Oliver Larabee: Twentieth century? Why, I could pick a centruy out of a hat, blindfolded and come up with a better one.

~Sabrina (1954)

So friday, I watched "Breakfast at Tiffani's", then yesterday I watched "Sabrina". Now all I need to do is watch "Roman Holiday" and my little Audrey Hepburn marathon can be compleate, ooh, and "Wait Until Dark". I like Audrey Hepburn.

Heh... *grin*

I know you
I walked with you once upon a dream.
I know you
The gleam in your eyes is so familiar a gleam
Yes, I know it's true
that visions are seldom all they seem
But if I know you, I know what you'll do
You'll love me at once
the way you did once upon a dream

... yeah... *smile*
Prince Phillip was probably the best prince. I'd say tied with The Beast.

Everything with a Place and a Purpose

Mortals make elaborate plans,
but God has the last word.
Humans are satisfied with whatever looks good;
God probes for what is good.
Put God in charge of your work,
then what you've planned will take place.
God made everything with a place and purpose;
even the wicked are included—but for judgment.
God can't stomach arrogance or pretense;
believe me, he'll put those upstarts in their place.
Guilt is banished through love and truth;
Fear-of-God deflects evil.
When God approves of your life,
even your enemies will end up shaking your hand.
Far better to be right and poor
than to be wrong and rich.
We plan the way we want to live,
but only God makes us able to live it.

~Proverbs 16:1-9
The Message

Wow, some of these verses are really good.
I should start reading Proverbs more and more often...

This popped into my head this morning

*We* are the music makers... and *we* are the dreamers of dreams.

~Willy Wonka and
the Chocolate Factory

Now, can we make those dreams come true?

Awwww....

E-mail I got from my mom today:

ICHUAN, China -- One zoo in southwest China has its hands full with 16 baby pandas.

The Sichuan Wolong Panda Protection and Breed Center is dealing with the results of a breeding boom -- 16 pandas have been born since July, 2005. The brood includes five sets of twins. The cubs are weighed and measured every five days by a special panda nurse.

The heaviest tips the scale at just over 24 pounds, while the lightest weighs about 11 pounds. The pandas are due to stop being suckled by their mothers in February, 2006 just about the time they'll start learning to walk. Once weaned, the panda cubs will attend panda kindergarten. In the meantime, more little ones are expected at the center, since 38 giant pandas were artificially impregnated.

*siiiiigh*

Maria:
Perhaps I had a wicked childhood
Perhaps I had a miserable youth
But somwhere in my wicked, miserable past
There must have been a moment of truth

For here you are, standing there, loving me
Whether or not you should
So somewhere in my youth or childhood
I must have done something good

Nothing comes from nothing
Nothing ever could
So somewhere in my youth or childhood
I must have done something good

Captain:
For here you are, standing there, loving me
Whether or not you should

Maria:
So somewhere in my youth or childhood
I must have done something good

Maria and the Captain:
Nothing comes from nothing
Nothing ever could

Maria:
So somewhere in my youth
Captain:
Or childhood
Maria:
I must have done something . . .
Maria and the Captain:
Something good

~Something Good
from Sound of Music

*sigh*... hmmmmm.....

Um, God...?

Help me out God I need a little something
Turn the brights on I can't see where we're going
Cause I don't know when things'll work out just fine
Or if this road we're on leads us up
Or is leading me on down to my wishing well
Where I might drown oh I might drown
Cause I can't swim without you God

Help me out God I need a little something
Hold my hand so I know that I'm not falling down
Or spinning round or am I really just fine
Is this vertigo I feel just simply fear or maybe real
It's a long way down and I might fall and I might fall
Cause I can't stand without you God

Help me out God I need a little something
Just enough so I don't lose hope before morning comes
Cause in the sun things'll work out just fine
But this night's been extra long I fear I won't make it to the Dawn
Cause the night is dark and I might doubt and I might doubt
Cause I can't hope without you God

Just enough for today get me through 'til tomorrow

~Help me out God
by Superchick

*sigh* i know you will...

I really want to watch Tarzan right now

Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand
Hold it tight

I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry

For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here
in my heart always
Always

~You'll Be in My Heart

*sigh* i also want chocolate...

Yet another good fortune cookie

You will recieve fantastic support
from someone who belives in you.

...here's hoping...

Chapel day

Ok, so everyone knows the story of creation:
We were all living in a perfect world with God. Then one day, Adam and Eve eat of this apple or whatever kind of fruit it was, and then.... the democratic party was invented.

~Donald Miller

I want to read Blue Like Jazz now. Too bad I have to read stuff for school first.

He is an amazing speaker. He talked about a lot of good stuff. It was one of those things where you had to be there.

Today is September 11. Yeah, 5 years ago... just something that you need to take time and think about just a little bit.
I really hope that the one myspace bulitin about skiping school today didn't fan out. That was just a stupid idea. It seems like they are taking advantage of a national tradegdy just so they can ditch class. ... some people's kids...

I'm liking the Daily Quotes section on my google homepage

All things are difficult before they are easy.
- Dr. Thomas Fuller

Things aren't really difficult, it's just a good quote. Probably come in handy sometime in the future when I'm feeling down and stuff.

whoa-o...i've been banging my head against the wall...

whoa-o...for so long it seems i knocked it down, yeah it got knocked down
whoa-o...and the heating bill went through the roof
whoa-o...and the wall i knocked down was the proof
that my landlord needed to kick me out

i got evicted now i'm living on the street
my spirits lifted...oh wait, that wasn't me
too many turns have turned out to be wrong
this time i learned that, i knew it all along

when car crashes occur
then i'll be what you were
when i see what i should
when i see that it's good (that it's good)

to experience the bittersweet
to taste defeat
then brush my teeth
experience the bittersweet
to taste defeat
then brush my teeth

cause i struggle with forward motion
i struggle with forward motion
we all struggle with forward motion
cause forward motion is harder than it sounds
well everytime i gain some ground
i gotta turn myself around again
it's harder than it sounds
well everytime i gain some ground
i gotta turn myself around again

whoa-o...i've been banging my head against the wall
whoa-o...for so long it seems i got knocked out. yeah, i got knocked out cold
whoa-o...and the medical bills went through the roof
whoa-o...and the scar on my head is the proof
that i'll still remember this when i get old

i got evicted now i'm living on the street
my spirits lifted...oh wait, that wasn't me
too many turns have turned out to be wrong
this time i learned that, i knew it all along

when i grasp the concept
then i'll sleep where you slept
when i know i need help
when i allow myself (allow myself)

to experience the bittersweet
to taste defeat
then brush your teeth
experience the bittersweet
to taste defeat
then brush your teeth

cause i struggle with forward motion
i struggle with forward motion
we all struggle with forward motion

cause forward motion is harder than it sounds
well everytime i gain some ground
i gotta turn myself around again
it's harder than it sounds
well everytime i gain some ground
i gotta turn myself around again

cause i struggle with forward motion
cause i struggle with forward motion
we all struggle with forward motion

[in background:]
(cause forward motion is harder than it sounds.
well everytime i gain some ground
i gotta turn myself around again
cause forward motion is harder than it sounds
well everytime i gain some ground
i gotta turn myself around again)

cause i struggle with forward motion
cause i struggle with forward motion
we all struggle with forward motion

cause i struggle with forward motion
cause i struggle with forward motion
we all struggle with forward motion

*sigh*

HA!!!

Did you ever walk into a room and forget why you walked in? I think that's how dogs spend their lives.
-Sue Murphy

Yay for procrastination!

Anyone can do any amount of work provided it isn't the work he is supposed to be doing at the moment.
- Robert Benchley

Getting into you

When I made up my mind
And my heart along with that
To live not for myself
But yet for God, somebody said
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

When I finally ironed out
All of my priorities
And asked God to remove the doubt
That makes me so unsure of these
Things I ask myself, I ask myself
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

[Chorus]
I'm getting into you
Because you got to me, in a way words can't describe
I'm getting into you
Because I've got to be
You're essential to survive
I'm going to love you with my life

When he looked at me and said
I kind of view you as a son
And for one second our eyes met
And I met that with a question
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

[Chorus]

I've been a liar and I'll never amount to
The kind of person you deserve to worship you
You say you will not dwell on what I did but rather what I do you say
I love you and that's what you are getting yourself into

[Chorus]

He said, I love you and that's what you are getting yourself into

~"Getting Into You"
by Relient K

...i really need to keep this song in mind...

Yay

It's finally working for me again!

Pulling out the Floaty Songs playlist

... stupid girly mode...
...nothing to quote really...
... meh...

GAAH! Why is looking here working for everyone but me?!?!

Fortune Cookie

I was packing for college and I found this:

Friends long absent are
coming back to you.

How fitting...

Yay for Disney songs!

[Meg:]
If there's a prize for rotten judgement
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history, been there, done that!

[Muses:] Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, ya can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of

[Meg:]
No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no

[Muses:]
You swoon, you sigh
why deny it, uh-oh

[Meg:]
It's too cliche
I won't say I'm in love

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out
Oh

[Muses:]
You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad

[Meg:]
No chance, now way
I won't say it, no, no

[Muses:]
Give up, give in
Check the grin you're in love

[Meg:]
This scene won't play,
I won't say I'm in love

[Muses:]
You're doin flips read our lips
You're in love

[Meg:]
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it

[Muses:]
Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love

[Meg:]
Oh
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love

~"I Won't Say (I'm In Love)"
from Disney's Hercules

It doesn't really apply to my life right now, it's just a fun song.
It's even more interesting in spanish.

You are my love ~Tsubasa Chronicle: Future Soundcape I

Kiss me sweet,
I'm sleeping in silence.
All alone
in ice and snow.

In my dream
I'm calling your name,
you are my love.

In your eyes
I search for my memory
lost in vain
so far in the scenery.
Hold me tight,
and swear again and again
we'll never be apart.

If you could touch my feathers softly,
I'll give you my love.
We set sail in the darkness
of the night,
out to the sea
to find me there,
to find you there,
if you dare...

Kiss me sweet,
I'm sleeping in sorrow
all alone
to see you tomorrow

In my dream
I'm calling your name,
you are my love...
My love....

~From Tsubasa Chronicle:
Future Soundscape I

*sigh* Combination anime and floaty song. Yay! ^_^

How Great thou Art

O Lord my God, When I in awesome wonder,
Consider all the worlds Thy Hands have made;
I see the stars, I hear the rolling thunder,
Thy power throughout the universe displayed.

Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!

When through the woods, and forest glades I wander,
And hear the birds sing sweetly in the trees.
When I look down, from lofty mountain grandeur
And see the brook, and feel the gentle breeze.

Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!

And when I think, that God, His Son not sparing;
Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in;
That on the Cross, my burden gladly bearing,
He bled and died to take away my sin.

Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!

When Christ shall come, with shout of acclamation,
And take me home, what joy shall fill my heart.
Then I shall bow, in humble adoration,
And then proclaim: "My God, how great Thou art!"

Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!

How great thou art indeed....

Again with the mangas

It might be...
... a thing called muscle memory.
Yuko talked about it.
There are two types of memory.
What the counscious mind remembers and whatt the body remembers.
The counscious mind is very important, but the body is really important too.
Sometimes when the mind forgets, the body remembers for it.

~Mokona from "Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle"
book 9

... stupid reflexes...

*huge grin on my face*

Our state fair is a great state fair,
Don't miss it, don't even be late.
It's dollars to donuts
That our state fair
Is the best state fair in our state.

~from "State Fair"

YAY FOR THE MINNESOTA STATE FAIR!!!!!

hmm... I should watch this movie sometime...

At least support the troops

Hymn we sang in chruch today:

God bless our troops int air, on land and sea!
Full well we know how dear they are to Thee
Where're they go, whatever they may dare,
God, keep them even in Your gracious care

God bless our troops by night as well by day
While we at home, continually will pray
That war and strife and enmity may cease
And that You bring us everlasting peace

~God Bless Our Troops
(sung to Savior, Again to Thy Dear Name We Raise)

I don't care what side you choose on the war with Iraq, whether the troops should be there or not. The very least you can do is support them. They are risking their lives to bring freedom to those who have so little of it. The smallest thing we can do is pray for them and support them in whatever ways that we can.

Spiritual Lessons with Sora

That's not true! The heart may be weak, and sometimes it may even give in. But I've learned that deep down, there's a light that never goes out!

~Kingdom Hearts

John & Rizpah

"You've given your life to Christ, and rest assured, he will mold and make you into the vessel best designed to his purposes."

"Yes, but I wish I knew what that purpose was."

"You do know. God's will isn't hidden away like the myths and philosophies and knowledge of this world. Jesus told us openly and daily what his will for us is. Love one another. Love one another."

~from "As Sure as the Dawn" by Francine Rivers

Black and White movies are awesome

Please do not use that word. Were I not entirely aware of my duty to my family and to my country, I would not have come back tonight... or indeed ever again!

~Audrey Hepburn in "Roman Holiday"

Audrey Hepburn is amazing. So elegant. Oh, I just love her.

*WARNING*

Now entering super hopeless romantic mode

I wanna run into someones arms
Lie on a bed of roses
I wanna feel just like juliet
I wanna fall in love
I've got a feeling

Everybody wants someone to love
Somebody they can trust
Somebody they can touch
Everybody wants to give their heart away
Everybody needs a little tenderness
To feel understood
To feel passionate
Everybody wants to be in love this way
Everybody wants to be in love this way
I know I do what about you

I wanna be somebody's baby
I want to cry and still feel beautiful
Maybe I really just wanna be myself
I'm not the only one
I got a feeling

Everybody wants someonne to love
Somebody they can trust
Somebody they can touch
Everybody wants to give their heart away
Everybody needs a little tenderness

To feel understood
To feel passionate
Everybody wants to be in love this way
Everybody wants to be in love this way
I know I do
What about you
I do I do doesn't everybody wanna give their heart away
I do I do dosen't everybody wanna be in love this way
Cause I do

I wanna feel like an angel
I want to fly on a beam of moonlight
I wanna see heaven from the inside
I wanna feel just like juliet
Juliet juliet

~"Love This Way", by Eden's Crush

...ok, so i kinda do, i kinda don't... i can wait longer... i need to wait longer....



Yeah, I know, it's an old song and by a group that no longer exists, but it's still pretty good. It quenches the hopeless romantic thirst in me...

I have started to make a "Songs that make me feel floaty inside" playlist.
You all know that you have one, or want to have one...

What am I thinking?

I'm fifteen for a moment
Caught in between ten and twenty
and I'm just dreaming
counting the ways to where you are

I'm twenty-two for a moment
and she feels better than ever
and we're on fire
making our way back from mars


Fifteen, there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
Fifteen
There's never a wish better than this
When you only got a hundred years to live

I'm thirty-three for a moment
I'm still the man
but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way, babe
A family on my mind


I'm fourty-five for a moment
The sea is high
and I'm heading into a crisis
chasing the years of my life


Fifteen, there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose yourself within a morning star
Fifteen, I'm alright with you
Fifteen
There's never a wish better than this
When you only got a hundred years to live

How the time goes by
Suddenly, you're wise
Another blink of an eye, sixty-seven is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...

I'm ninety-nine for a moment
Dying for just another moment
and I'm just dreaming
counting the ways to where you are

Fifteen, there's still time for you
Twenty-Two, I feel her, too
Thirty-Three, you're on your way
Every day's a new day...

Fifteen, there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey, fifteen
There's never a wish better than this
when you only got a hundred years to live

~"100 years" by Five for Fighting

... i have a bunch of time left...
... i can wait for stuff....

Yay for DDR/Techno songs!!!

Oh, thinking about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free
Now nothing can take you away from me
We've been down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me coming back for more

Baby, you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms,
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need,
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

Oh, once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Pick you up when your feeling down
Now nothing could change what you mean to me
There's a lot that I could say
But just hold me now
Cause our love will light the way

Baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms,
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need,
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

I've been waiting for so long
For something to arrive
For love to come along
Now our dreams are coming true
Through the good times and the bad
I'll be standing there by you

Baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms
Im finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need,
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven
Oh, Oh
Oh, Oh
We're in heaven

~Heaven, by DJ Sammy

don't read too much into it

If only I could truely quote parts of mangas on here...

Here's the best I can do:

Li?
You are a really kind person.
I know you don't want to make Sakura unhappy.
But...
Sakura isn't the type to hold on to sadness forever.
If you confess your feelings...
...she'll accept them...
...and give you the answer that's best for her.

~Tomoyo from "Cardcaptor Sakura;
Master of the Clow", Book 4

... i love this series...

The Second Tuesday

I asked Morrie if he felt sorry for himself.

"Sometimes in the mornings," he said. "That's when I mourn. I feel around my body, I move my fingers and my hands- whatever I can still move- and I mourn what I've lost. I mourn the slow, insidious way in which I'm dying. But then I stop mourning."

Just like that?

"I give myslef a god cry if I need it. But then I concentrate on all the good things still in my life. On the people who are coming to see me. On the sotries I'm going to hear. On you- if it's Tuesday. Because we're Tuesday people."

I grined. Tuesday people.

"Mitch, I don't allow myself any more self-pity than that. A little each morning, a few tears, that's all"

I thought about all the people I knew who spent many of their waking hours feeling sorry for themsleves. How useful will it be to put a daily limit on self-pity. Just a few tearful minutes, then on with the day. And if Morrie could do it, with such a horrible disease...

~Tuesdays With Morrie, by Mitch Albom

... stupid PMS, i don't want/need this right now...

*sigh* Ok, my few minutes are over.

Looking at random MySpace profiles and this caught my eye

When I say..."I am a Christian" I'm not shouting "I am saved."
I'm whispering "I was lost" That is why I chose this way.

When I say..."I am a Christian" I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble and need someone to be my guide.

When I say..."I am a Christian" I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak and pray for strength to carry on.

When I say..."I am a Christian" I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed and cannot ever pay the debt.

When I say..."I am a Christian" I'm not claiming to be perfect.
My flaws are too visible but, God believes I'm worth it.

When I say..."I am a Christian" I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches which is why I speak His name.

When I say..."I am a Christian" I do not wish to judge.
I have no authority. I only know I'm loved

Sixteen going on seventeen (reprise)~ The Sound of Music

[Maria:]
You are sixteen going on seventeen
Waiting for life to start
Somebody kind who touches your mind
Will suddenly touch your heart

[Liesl:]
When that happens, after it happens
Nothing is quite the same
Somehow I know I'll jump up and go
If ever he calls my name

[Maria:]
Gone are your old ideas of life
The old ideas grow dim
Lo and behold you're someone's wife
And you belong to him

You may think this kind of adventure
Never may come to you
Darling sixteen going on seventeen
Wait a year . . .

[Liesl:]
I'll wait a year . . .

[Maria:]
Just wait a year . . .

[Maria and Liesl:]
Or two




I love The Sound of Music...


... maybe a month or few instead.... it's already been almost 3.... it doesn't seem like it...
... definetly not ready yet, as much as i would like to be...

... i didn't really want this post to be something where it explains how i feel... i just wanted to show how much i like The Sound of Music... but i guess it just turned out that way...

...i'm thinking too much again...

Unwritten ~Natasha Bedingfield

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with eyes wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with eyes wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten



...this song feels quite fitting seeing as how it is raining outside and all i want to do is go play in it...

*hums Ariel's song*

Devin is on a Little Mermaid phase. Probably will be done sometime next week.


... as unrealistic as these kind of movies are, i still love them. good childhood memories and it reaches out to the hopeless romantic in me...

Tu Gaurdian (Your Protector)~Juanes (translation mine)

Duermete pronto mi amor (Sleep soon my love)
Que la noche ya llego (The night has arived)

Y cierra tus ojos que yo (And close your eyes so that I)
De tus suenos cuidare (Of your dreams can take care of)
Siempre a tu lado estare (At your side I will always be)

Y tu guardian yo sere (And I will be your protector*)
Toda la vida (All of your life)
Si un dia te sientes mal (If one day you feel bad)
Yo de bien te llenare (I will fill you with goodness)

Y aunque muy lejos tu estes (And although you are far away)
Yo a tu sombra cuidare (I will gaurd your shadow)
Siempre a tu lado estare (Always will I be at your side)

Y tu guardian yo sere (And I will be your protector*)
Toda la vida (All of your life)
Esta noche (This night)
Te prometo que no vendran (I promise you that they will not come)
Ni dragones ni fantasmas a molestar (Not dargons nor monsters to bother you)

Y en la puerta de tus suenos yo voy a estar (And in the door of your dreams I will be)
Hasta que tus ojos vuelvan a abrir (Untill your eyes open again)

Duermete mi amor suena con mi voz (Sleep my love, dream about my voice)
Duermete mi amor hasta que salga el sol (Sleep my love, untill the sun comes up)
Duermete mi amor suena con mi voz (Sleep my love, dream about my voice)
Duermete mi amor que aqui estare yo (Sleep my love, that I would be here)


*lit trans: guardian, but i like protector
** no accent marks because blogger is being stupid and not really recognizing them when I post it




... quiero un guardian como eso...
... algun dia...

...

... i think i'm bipolar...

... i feel like that would explain alot...

... i thought that if i just took my formula, i'd feel better...
... i don't...

... i should see a doctor about it...


... i'm going to bed, sleep is always good...

Footprints ~by Margaret Fishback Powers

One night I dreamed a dream.
I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene,
I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to me and
One to my Lord.

When the last scene of my life shot before me
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
There was only one set of footprints.
I realized that this was at the lowest
And saddest times of my life.
This always bothered me
And I questioned the Lord
about my dilemma.

"Lord, You told me when i decided to follow You,
You would walk and talk with me all the way.
But i'm aware that during the most troublesome
Times of my life there is only one set of footprints.
I just don't understand why, when I need You most,
You leave me."

He whispered, "My precious child,
I love you and will never leave you,
never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you say only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you."

... carry me Father...

Out of thin air ~Aladin III: The King of Thevies

Devin was listening to a Disney CD and this song came on;

You showed me the world
When I was all locked up inside,
You reached out your hand
And took me on a magic carpet ride
One look at your smile,
And I could see the light
Shining everywhere
People like you don't come out of thin air.


... yeah, good song...

Think of me fondly ~Phantom of the Opera

Think of me
think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me
once in a while -
please promise me
you'll try.

When you find
that, once
again, you long
to take your heart back
and be free -
if you
ever find
a moment,
spare a thought
for me

We never said
our love
was evergreen,
or as unchanging
as the sea -
but if
you can still
remember
stop and think
of me . . .

Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things
which might have been . . .

Think of me,
think of me waking,
silent and
resigned.

Imagine me,
trying too hard
to put you
from my mind.

Recall those days
look back
on all those times,
think of the things
we'll never do -
there will
never be
a day, when
I won't think
of you . . .


... I love this song, but I never really, truly looked at it, until now...

I'm just wondering...

does anyone even read this?

Relient K songs

*I so hate consequences

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don’t want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I said the words I knew you knew
Oh God, Oh God I needed you
God all this time I needed you, I needed you

~~~~~~~~~~~~~


this doesn't quite seem to fit it though...



.... let's just say that sometimes I just want to escape...

... maybe this is more fitting...

*Which is to bury, us or the hatchet?*

~~~~~~~~~~~~
what happened to us
i heard that it's me we should blame
what happened to us
why didn't you stop me from turning out this way
and know that I don't hate you
and know that I don't want to fight you
and know that I'll always love you
but right now I just don't...


... or how about...


*Let it all out*

Let it all out
get it all out
rip it out remove it
don't be alarmed
when the wound begins to bleed

cause we're so scared to find out
what this life's all about
so scared we're going to lose it
not knowing all along
that's exactly what we need

and today I will trust you with confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
but tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
oh, inconsistent me
crying out for consistency

and you said I know that this will hurt
but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember
the end will justify the pain it took to get us there

and I'll let it be known
at times I have shown
signs of all my weakness
but somewhere in me
there is strength

and you promise me
that you believe
in time I will defeat this
cause somewhere in me
there is strength

and today I will trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
and I'll try my best to just forget
that that man isn't me

reach out to me
make my heart brand new
every beat will be for you
for you

and I know you know
you touched my life
when you touched my heavy heart and made it light




*sigh*

Mattew 23:11-12 (The Message)

Do you want to stand out? Then step down. Be a servant. If you puff yourself up, you'll get the wind knocked out of you. But if you're content to simply be yourself, your life will count for plenty.

The first cut is the deepest ~Sheryl Crow

I would have given you all of my heart
but there's someone who's torn it apart
and she's taking almost all that I've got
but if you want, I'll try to love again
baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
'cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

I still want you by my side
just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
cause I'm sure gonna give you a try
and if you want, I'll try to love again
but baby, I'll try to love again, but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

'Cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest


.... just change the "she's" to "he's", and it will slightly apply, but only slightly...




...it's still too soon...

It really isn't that depressing.... true, is more like it

Die, die, we all pass away
But don't wear a frown cuz it's really okay
And you might try 'n' hide
And you might try 'n' pray
But we all end up the remains of the day
~Reamains of the Day, Corpse Bride


... somethings are just inevevitable...

Philippians 4: 6-7

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Sally's Song~ The Nightmare Before Christmas

I sense there's something in the wind
That feels like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend

And does he notice my feelings for him?
And will he see how much he means to me?
I think it's not to be

..........

And will we ever end up together?
No, I think not, it's never to become
For I am not the one




*sigh*

Xanga

Ok, so I think that I am going to stick to xanga b/c that is more fun. I might post here every once in a while and post my more serious thoughts (Heather, what a great idea, snaps for Heather!!). My xanga adress is http://www.xanga.com/babypanda51 if you ever want to read it.

Crying

I seem to have a love/hate relationship when it comes to crying. I really enjoy it. Like Dunavan, my religion teacher, says, "crying is throwing up for the soul". I agree with that. It is so refreshing letting everything out in one instance. Crying is great, but I don't have the greatest experiences with the post-cry. By that time, my eyes are puffy, my nose is runny, and I just don't look the best and one could tell that I was crying. One thing that really bugs me is when people are like "are you ok?" and "is something wrong?", because obviously something is wrong because I was just crying. I understand that they have nothing else to do to react to that, but for me, it doesn't help, it usually makes it worse and I just want to start crying again and it is kind of embarassing because I usually am crying about something that I don't want everyone to find out about, or it is just the wrong time to talk about it. I find that the best way to react to that is to ignore the feelings and just say "yeah", "I'm fine" or even "I'll talk to you about it later" (if I feel like I can talk to them and trust them). I can only do it to a certian point though and then I have to leave to be by myself or someone close to me to talk to them. Crying just sucks in that sense. *sigh*

INSANITY!!!

Ok, so I don't know whats going on but I'm going insane again like that one time that I mentioned before in my blog. Yeah, but the thing is, I haven't had caffinee in a quite some time, yesterday was the last time I think. I dunno, but I am going crazy. At least I'm good entertainment for my roommate!!! I'm still going insane, but it's not as bad, my body is kind of worn out from playing DDR. Yay for wearing yourself out playing DDR!!!! Yeah, this is definatly random, but what can you expect, my mind is going a mile a minute thinking about diffrent stuff, random stuff to be exact, that border on the line of insanity! *heehee*

Hugs

So I got into a discussion about hugs with my bf on friday, mostly about casual hugs between members of the opposite sex. I don't hug other guys because he has a problem with it. He says that it is an intimate thing where someone can have (physical) control over you at a certian point and time. It's hard for me to think that way, but I can see where he is coming from. Now I know guys look at things diffrently than girls, but is what my bf said the same as what other guys think? Deffinatly going to research this.

So my mom found out that I have a blog and wants to read it. Well, not if I can help it!!!

Yay for easter break!!!

(Yeah it's 1 o'clock in the morning and I'm kinda loopy so this blog is random. But hey, who couldn't use some randomness? )

(ok, so I posted this on my xanga site like 2 days ago, but I only saved this one as a draft; whatever, it's posted now)

It's all good (in comparison to my last entry)

Things have definatly changed for the better since my last real posting, and I definatly don't feel like punching someone/somthing anymore. That was a tough time. Sorry I left it so vague, but I did not want to accuse people of things and make their private life public without their permission. But yeah, thing are better.

I've noticed that I have not mentioned that much about my bf in my blog. I'm not quite sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. I mean, I don't want to be one of those girls who seem like all their life revolves around their bf and that that is all that they talk about, because, frankly, that can get old and anoying after awhile. But at the same time I want to talk about him, how great he is, what he is like, and things like that, but I also don't want to post anything that would backfire on me if he were to read this. I'm sure that there is some common ground, but how much is too much, or, how little is too little?

Along the same line, how does a person show that they have a bf/gf without it being too obvious, or should it be obvious? I try to make it obvious. You could tell if you read the bracelett on my right arm that I have a bf, but what about when people don't notice it? What is the "proper way" to introduce/bring up a significant other so that other people aren't put off? Comments would be appriciated.

It's getting late so I'm gonna go. I think this was a good entry for it being so late at night.

I feel like punching someone/something

How do some people say they believe one thing, sign a statement saying they believe this thing and saying on the statement that they won't do said thing, and then GO AND DO SAID THING!?!?!? And in the place where the statement is holded very VERY strongly?!?! And with other people's stuff and think that nothing is wrong with it?!?!?!

I am trying really hard not to freak out or let out this secret (which I might have already failed at, Cullen don't repeat a word!!!!!). I am literaly shaking because of this information!! I feel like this is the only way of getting it out of my system without someone losing their head.

God please calm me down!!!!

I can't wait to go work out!

Sorry / Faith / Dad

Ok, I knew this would happen. I would start a blog and then never really keep up with it. That's why I don't own a diary. Whatever.

So I asked my dad today about his beliefs and stuff. Here is pretty much the converstation:

Me: Dad, do you believe in God?
Dad: Yeah, sure.
Me: Then why don't you go to church?
Dad: I think church is all about politics.
Me: (something along the lines of) So how do you worship God/ why don't you read the bible?
Dad: (something along the lines of) Well I believe there are other ways of worshiping God. Growing up catholic never taught me to read the bible as a way to get to know God, that's more of a prodestant thing. Are you afraid of me dying?
Me: No, I'm just afraid for your soul.
Dad: Well, I think my soul will be ok.

And that was the just of the conversation. I've been wanting to ask him more stuff over the years and I finally got around to it today. Ok, so here is some backround info on my dad: He was just diagnosed with lymphoma and is going through chemo therapy, the first session was on the 24th. I think that why he thinks that church is all about politics is because when his uncle was dying, he was asked to go to the church to get a priest to recite the last rites (I think, i'm not sure tho) and to give communion to his uncle. The church responded by saying "he doesn't have time for us, we don't have time for him" and that set a huge example for him.

I don't know what to do now. I'll just keep praying about it.

A WHOLE YEAR!!!

Wow. I totaly forgot about this blog. The only reason I remebered it was because of my friend's blog. I usually use xanga, but I might just copy my blog entries and then copy them to here. Sounds like a plan to me!!