Crying

I seem to have a love/hate relationship when it comes to crying. I really enjoy it. Like Dunavan, my religion teacher, says, "crying is throwing up for the soul". I agree with that. It is so refreshing letting everything out in one instance. Crying is great, but I don't have the greatest experiences with the post-cry. By that time, my eyes are puffy, my nose is runny, and I just don't look the best and one could tell that I was crying. One thing that really bugs me is when people are like "are you ok?" and "is something wrong?", because obviously something is wrong because I was just crying. I understand that they have nothing else to do to react to that, but for me, it doesn't help, it usually makes it worse and I just want to start crying again and it is kind of embarassing because I usually am crying about something that I don't want everyone to find out about, or it is just the wrong time to talk about it. I find that the best way to react to that is to ignore the feelings and just say "yeah", "I'm fine" or even "I'll talk to you about it later" (if I feel like I can talk to them and trust them). I can only do it to a certian point though and then I have to leave to be by myself or someone close to me to talk to them. Crying just sucks in that sense. *sigh*