I seem to have a love/hate relationship when it comes to crying. I really enjoy it. Like Dunavan, my religion teacher, says, "crying is throwing up for the soul". I agree with that. It is so refreshing letting everything out in one instance. Crying is great, but I don't have the greatest experiences with the post-cry. By that time, my eyes are puffy, my nose is runny, and I just don't look the best and one could tell that I was crying. One thing that really bugs me is when people are like "are you ok?" and "is something wrong?", because obviously something is wrong because I was just crying. I understand that they have nothing else to do to react to that, but for me, it doesn't help, it usually makes it worse and I just want to start crying again and it is kind of embarassing because I usually am crying about something that I don't want everyone to find out about, or it is just the wrong time to talk about it. I find that the best way to react to that is to ignore the feelings and just say "yeah", "I'm fine" or even "I'll talk to you about it later" (if I feel like I can talk to them and trust them). I can only do it to a certian point though and then I have to leave to be by myself or someone close to me to talk to them. Crying just sucks in that sense. *sigh*
Ok, so I don't know whats going on but I'm going insane again like that one time that I mentioned before in my blog. Yeah, but the thing is, I haven't had caffinee in a quite some time, yesterday was the last time I think. I dunno, but I am going crazy. At least I'm good entertainment for my roommate!!! I'm still going insane, but it's not as bad, my body is kind of worn out from playing DDR. Yay for wearing yourself out playing DDR!!!! Yeah, this is definatly random, but what can you expect, my mind is going a mile a minute thinking about diffrent stuff, random stuff to be exact, that border on the line of insanity! *heehee*
So I got into a discussion about hugs with my bf on friday, mostly about casual hugs between members of the opposite sex. I don't hug other guys because he has a problem with it. He says that it is an intimate thing where someone can have (physical) control over you at a certian point and time. It's hard for me to think that way, but I can see where he is coming from. Now I know guys look at things diffrently than girls, but is what my bf said the same as what other guys think? Deffinatly going to research this.
So my mom found out that I have a blog and wants to read it. Well, not if I can help it!!!
Yay for easter break!!!
(Yeah it's 1 o'clock in the morning and I'm kinda loopy so this blog is random. But hey, who couldn't use some randomness? )
(ok, so I posted this on my xanga site like 2 days ago, but I only saved this one as a draft; whatever, it's posted now)
Things have definatly changed for the better since my last real posting, and I definatly don't feel like punching someone/somthing anymore. That was a tough time. Sorry I left it so vague, but I did not want to accuse people of things and make their private life public without their permission. But yeah, thing are better.
I've noticed that I have not mentioned that much about my bf in my blog. I'm not quite sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. I mean, I don't want to be one of those girls who seem like all their life revolves around their bf and that that is all that they talk about, because, frankly, that can get old and anoying after awhile. But at the same time I want to talk about him, how great he is, what he is like, and things like that, but I also don't want to post anything that would backfire on me if he were to read this. I'm sure that there is some common ground, but how much is too much, or, how little is too little?
Along the same line, how does a person show that they have a bf/gf without it being too obvious, or should it be obvious? I try to make it obvious. You could tell if you read the bracelett on my right arm that I have a bf, but what about when people don't notice it? What is the "proper way" to introduce/bring up a significant other so that other people aren't put off? Comments would be appriciated.
It's getting late so I'm gonna go. I think this was a good entry for it being so late at night.
