Looking at random MySpace profiles and this caught my eye

When I say..."I am a Christian" I'm not shouting "I am saved."
I'm whispering "I was lost" That is why I chose this way.

When I say..."I am a Christian" I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble and need someone to be my guide.

When I say..."I am a Christian" I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak and pray for strength to carry on.

When I say..."I am a Christian" I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed and cannot ever pay the debt.

When I say..."I am a Christian" I'm not claiming to be perfect.
My flaws are too visible but, God believes I'm worth it.

When I say..."I am a Christian" I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches which is why I speak His name.

When I say..."I am a Christian" I do not wish to judge.
I have no authority. I only know I'm loved

Sixteen going on seventeen (reprise)~ The Sound of Music

[Maria:]
You are sixteen going on seventeen
Waiting for life to start
Somebody kind who touches your mind
Will suddenly touch your heart

[Liesl:]
When that happens, after it happens
Nothing is quite the same
Somehow I know I'll jump up and go
If ever he calls my name

[Maria:]
Gone are your old ideas of life
The old ideas grow dim
Lo and behold you're someone's wife
And you belong to him

You may think this kind of adventure
Never may come to you
Darling sixteen going on seventeen
Wait a year . . .

[Liesl:]
I'll wait a year . . .

[Maria:]
Just wait a year . . .

[Maria and Liesl:]
Or two




I love The Sound of Music...


... maybe a month or few instead.... it's already been almost 3.... it doesn't seem like it...
... definetly not ready yet, as much as i would like to be...

... i didn't really want this post to be something where it explains how i feel... i just wanted to show how much i like The Sound of Music... but i guess it just turned out that way...

...i'm thinking too much again...

Unwritten ~Natasha Bedingfield

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with eyes wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with eyes wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten



...this song feels quite fitting seeing as how it is raining outside and all i want to do is go play in it...

*hums Ariel's song*

Devin is on a Little Mermaid phase. Probably will be done sometime next week.


... as unrealistic as these kind of movies are, i still love them. good childhood memories and it reaches out to the hopeless romantic in me...

Tu Gaurdian (Your Protector)~Juanes (translation mine)

Duermete pronto mi amor (Sleep soon my love)
Que la noche ya llego (The night has arived)

Y cierra tus ojos que yo (And close your eyes so that I)
De tus suenos cuidare (Of your dreams can take care of)
Siempre a tu lado estare (At your side I will always be)

Y tu guardian yo sere (And I will be your protector*)
Toda la vida (All of your life)
Si un dia te sientes mal (If one day you feel bad)
Yo de bien te llenare (I will fill you with goodness)

Y aunque muy lejos tu estes (And although you are far away)
Yo a tu sombra cuidare (I will gaurd your shadow)
Siempre a tu lado estare (Always will I be at your side)

Y tu guardian yo sere (And I will be your protector*)
Toda la vida (All of your life)
Esta noche (This night)
Te prometo que no vendran (I promise you that they will not come)
Ni dragones ni fantasmas a molestar (Not dargons nor monsters to bother you)

Y en la puerta de tus suenos yo voy a estar (And in the door of your dreams I will be)
Hasta que tus ojos vuelvan a abrir (Untill your eyes open again)

Duermete mi amor suena con mi voz (Sleep my love, dream about my voice)
Duermete mi amor hasta que salga el sol (Sleep my love, untill the sun comes up)
Duermete mi amor suena con mi voz (Sleep my love, dream about my voice)
Duermete mi amor que aqui estare yo (Sleep my love, that I would be here)


*lit trans: guardian, but i like protector
** no accent marks because blogger is being stupid and not really recognizing them when I post it




... quiero un guardian como eso...
... algun dia...

...

... i think i'm bipolar...

... i feel like that would explain alot...

... i thought that if i just took my formula, i'd feel better...
... i don't...

... i should see a doctor about it...


... i'm going to bed, sleep is always good...

Footprints ~by Margaret Fishback Powers

One night I dreamed a dream.
I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene,
I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to me and
One to my Lord.

When the last scene of my life shot before me
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
There was only one set of footprints.
I realized that this was at the lowest
And saddest times of my life.
This always bothered me
And I questioned the Lord
about my dilemma.

"Lord, You told me when i decided to follow You,
You would walk and talk with me all the way.
But i'm aware that during the most troublesome
Times of my life there is only one set of footprints.
I just don't understand why, when I need You most,
You leave me."

He whispered, "My precious child,
I love you and will never leave you,
never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you say only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you."

... carry me Father...

Out of thin air ~Aladin III: The King of Thevies

Devin was listening to a Disney CD and this song came on;

You showed me the world
When I was all locked up inside,
You reached out your hand
And took me on a magic carpet ride
One look at your smile,
And I could see the light
Shining everywhere
People like you don't come out of thin air.


... yeah, good song...

Think of me fondly ~Phantom of the Opera

Think of me
think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me
once in a while -
please promise me
you'll try.

When you find
that, once
again, you long
to take your heart back
and be free -
if you
ever find
a moment,
spare a thought
for me

We never said
our love
was evergreen,
or as unchanging
as the sea -
but if
you can still
remember
stop and think
of me . . .

Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things
which might have been . . .

Think of me,
think of me waking,
silent and
resigned.

Imagine me,
trying too hard
to put you
from my mind.

Recall those days
look back
on all those times,
think of the things
we'll never do -
there will
never be
a day, when
I won't think
of you . . .


... I love this song, but I never really, truly looked at it, until now...

I'm just wondering...

does anyone even read this?

Relient K songs

*I so hate consequences

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don’t want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I said the words I knew you knew
Oh God, Oh God I needed you
God all this time I needed you, I needed you

~~~~~~~~~~~~~


this doesn't quite seem to fit it though...



.... let's just say that sometimes I just want to escape...

... maybe this is more fitting...

*Which is to bury, us or the hatchet?*

~~~~~~~~~~~~
what happened to us
i heard that it's me we should blame
what happened to us
why didn't you stop me from turning out this way
and know that I don't hate you
and know that I don't want to fight you
and know that I'll always love you
but right now I just don't...


... or how about...


*Let it all out*

Let it all out
get it all out
rip it out remove it
don't be alarmed
when the wound begins to bleed

cause we're so scared to find out
what this life's all about
so scared we're going to lose it
not knowing all along
that's exactly what we need

and today I will trust you with confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
but tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
oh, inconsistent me
crying out for consistency

and you said I know that this will hurt
but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember
the end will justify the pain it took to get us there

and I'll let it be known
at times I have shown
signs of all my weakness
but somewhere in me
there is strength

and you promise me
that you believe
in time I will defeat this
cause somewhere in me
there is strength

and today I will trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
and I'll try my best to just forget
that that man isn't me

reach out to me
make my heart brand new
every beat will be for you
for you

and I know you know
you touched my life
when you touched my heavy heart and made it light




*sigh*

Mattew 23:11-12 (The Message)

Do you want to stand out? Then step down. Be a servant. If you puff yourself up, you'll get the wind knocked out of you. But if you're content to simply be yourself, your life will count for plenty.

The first cut is the deepest ~Sheryl Crow

I would have given you all of my heart
but there's someone who's torn it apart
and she's taking almost all that I've got
but if you want, I'll try to love again
baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
'cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

I still want you by my side
just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
cause I'm sure gonna give you a try
and if you want, I'll try to love again
but baby, I'll try to love again, but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

'Cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest


.... just change the "she's" to "he's", and it will slightly apply, but only slightly...




...it's still too soon...